pastor preached an incredible message today that would be really too long to talk abt it. how i wish i was back in school studying. that is 100 times better than regimentation and with your freedom lost. civilian life is still the best.
so probably this is what dad was trying to tell me why army will still hurt abit even though the training regime has gone down by heaps since his time, it’s because of being stripped of everything like your freedom. it’s a lesson to learn, a milestone to remember and a feeling you cannot describe.
i want to pass out. i want to earn a good allowance. i want an interesting vocation. there are so many things i want and i know Jesus can fulfill that. in His time.
sometimes army is fun, at times it can be quite demoralizing for me as an individual. people better than me, i am not as good and not outstanding like various individuals. but one thing that keeps me going is knowing that i am the best in my jesus’ eyes. if i never knew that, i would not have such motivation to push on, i would be keng-ing every other day get an 8-5 job and stuff.
it’s really jesus n me in camp that keeps me calm, helps me sleep peacefully, be optimistic. if not for you jesus, i don’t know where i’d be.
Jesus it’s okay for me not to understand stuff because i know you’ll always draw near to me.
