everything about today was peaceful. even though i stepped on freaking glass. oh and i cant believe chinese new year is here alr !

recently i think it’s really a ploy to get me out of rest.

from driving, to retarded parking shit, and alot of nonsense just popping up everytime i take a relac jac attitude. it’s shit cause it like stops the momentum or flow of being at rest and you just got to rely on Jesus.

pastor’s sermon was on the spot today, i had quite a bad quarrel with my mom JUST before we were leaving for church, i had a stupid fine right outside my house the previous night and all just seemed to be going down hill when pastor said something which i just caught on.

God didn’t speak what he saw, but spoke what He believed and He saw what He believed.

I started to catch that and proclaim things that were unseen, praise the Lord for such a beautiful revelation of the Word.

i feel so loved again.

effing crazy world with retarded people out there.

i don’t care if that includes me or shit.

so many stories left untold
so much more to unfold
Jesus give me the opportunities
Open up doors for me

i agree with U2 to a certain extent. because i think we really cannot make it on our own. that’s why we need a saviour. if not, what for have someone save us if we could do all the shit to save ourselves. God help us if we think that way.

exams are at a point where i know i cannot make it on my own, yes, sometimes i tell myself i should have paid more attention blablabla and yes honestly that would have helped. but what’s the point crying over spilt milk. take the carton and pour out another glass. cause my heavenly Father does stuff like that even though i don’t deserve it at all.

So, give it my best shot, it’s the last sem. so many goals i have and yes i believe in Jesus to fulfill more than i expect.

Come on Jesus, it’s time i let you take the wheel forever.

i thoroughly enjoyed invictus. it had so much to say, i especially liked the part where he said “this country is hungry for greatness”

it spoke much to me because it talked about hunger, for me it’s a spiritual kind of hunger, i want so much more from Jesus and i know it will lead to goodness and everything. it applies to pretty much everyone, if you’re really hungry for more, don’t worry, jesus will fill you up. man. be at rest and you’ll be fed.

sometime today i was just walking and a thought just came into my head, it was “if you open up, you’ll receive more” in a literal sense yes, you create a bigger area, you’ll be able to put more stuff or whatever you want to do with it, but in another way, i took it as being real with Jesus. If we become more real with Jesus, we’ll receive more. why ? because we know He is a loving savior, and someone who loves us deeply will discipline and point the way to us and we’ll grow and grow and grow and be nurtured and there’s no boundaries. man. this hit me again, to always come clean and open myself up to Jesus.

Jesus said go to Him, those who are weary and He will give you rest. wow. just run to Him, somehow you’ll be sheltered under His wings and be at peace for you know your security lies in the one who is solid and who will never fail.

God says yes and I know
That I’m blessed
Yes got a heart that’s at rest
Yes and a future that’s sealed
Yes if I’m healed then I’m healed
I’m not afraid of circumstances
‘Cos I, I’ve already found the answers
In Christ all of God’s promises
Are yes, yes and amen

i like how this song and Still are my landmark songs for this year. it ties it so well with what pastor has been preaching. and that is having restful increase in 2010. wow.

i’m adopting or have already adopted this attitude where, this song really says everything. i know i’m greatly blessed already, my heart’s at rest (no more kan chiong spider attiude), because my future is already decided by Jesus, my heart’s even more at rest, if the bible says by His stripes i am healed, means i’m confirm chop chop guaranteed healed. no qns asked. too bad.  With all this tied in, why look at the storm around you, all you need to do is focus on the one who calms the storm. steady liao like that. with jesus, always win win situation. he’s not only got your back but front-side-top-bottom. aiseh.

and whatever deut 28 and all the promises Daddy has instore, it is Yes, Yes and amen. woooo.

eat my shorts devil.

i have decided to follow jesus
i have decided to follow jesus
i have decided to follow jesus
no turning back, no turning back.

no turning back jesus, walk with me, soar with me and lift me up.

a new christian was on his way to a crowded shopping mall on a Sunday just after church, he noticed that the carpark was crazy so he decided to ask Jesus to give him a lot. By grace, some car infront of him decided to leave the carpark and as he was about to park his car, another car from the back came and intercepted him and was also about to park in his lot.

Being the guy he is, he pressed down his horn non-stop till the other car admitted defeat. with vulgarities spewing from his mouth, this guy recollected to me the incident about how angry he was and he had no qualms in beating the guy up if he actually took the lot. reason being “JESUS gave me the lot and this guy must steal it is it ?!?!?!” hahahaha

i love the intention behind everything it’s so awesome such a young christian being able to see what jesus is doing in his life. we old timers complain just too much, that we don’t see the little things Jesus does to surprise us. oh gee.

of course i told him that it is a test, and yea he obviously failed it like any normal person would as well. even i failed the whole week with “conspiracies” driving around. man. but the beauty is like what Ps Ray Bevan said at mid-week. Jesus is like a GPS who doesn’t get fed up, or gives up on you. if you go the wrong route, he’ll simply as you to find the nearest u-turn if possible and help you get out of it.

Jesus, you’re darn fantastic.!

hunger leads to more capacity and that helps being non-stagnant.

one thing i always ask is never to be complacent thinking that this is enough because Jesus is never enough, there’s so much of Him that i haven’t experienced, there’s so much of His heart that i haven’t seen. I want more, more and more.

This is the start of my spiritual growth in a whole new level. it’s a whole new journey Daddy. guide me pls